My medication doesnt help and tends to make things worse

I'm on three psychiatric drugs. They dont do anything useful except muddle me up. I have trouble doing basic things without getting distracted constantly and not remembering what I was doing. Even the task of writing this blog post is difficult. When I'm on these medications I tend to function at a quarter of my potential. It tends to vary depending on the time of day, when I had my 'medication' though I dont like calling them medication because there's nothing medicinal about psychiatric drugs. 

An antibiotic is a medication because it has proven medicinal properties. Doctors know how it works, while no one knows how psychiatric drugs work since no one has found a cause to any kind of mental illness. There is no chemical imbalance and telling people that is very dishonest. Any doctor that isnt a quack will tell you that they really dont know how the drugs work.

While I try to do things my mind sort of takes over. This happens while I'm off the drugs, though while I'm on them it makes it ten times worse. Far as I know I dont suffer from what they think I do. I'm definetely not paranoid about anything. I just have a hard time explaining what's going on. The drugs only make it harder for my to explain myself since they effect my memory. Also a lot of doctors are pressed for time and are too arrogant to listen.

When I take the Divalproex at night it tends to make me high in a bad way. it makes me do irrational things. This is actually a common paradoxical effect that can happen with this drug. It's well known yet the doctor doesnt believe me. I'm not sure why he doesnt believe me. it often makes it hard to geto sleep at a decent hour. mental health professionals tend to regard the drugs as something that always helps even when apparently they're doing a lot more harm than good. 

Most of the reason I havnt made much progress in my life is the effects of these drugs. If I was never on them I would probably be gainfully employed. Some of the effects I've had on them probably are permanent. Things like antipsychotics have been proven to damage the brain in various ways. 

How to network two linux computers together with an ethernet cable

This is known to work on Manjaro and Ubuntu/mint at the time of the writing of this. But I am not sure with DIY distros or any other ones.

First verify what the name of your ethernet NIC device is with nmcli in the terminal:

nmcli -p device show

Scroll down until you find the entry that says ethernet under GENERAL.TYPE. If you dont have more than one ethernet adapter this should be the one. the name of your device is under GENERAL.DEVICE
So on the first computer we enter:

sudo ip address add 192.168.68.1/24 dev devicename

where device name is the name of the device you found using the nmcli command.
Follow the same steps for the computer at the other end except the last digit of the ip is one more increment. So on the second computer we'd type:

sudo ip address add 192.168.68.2/24 dev devicename

If everything worked okay you'll get a message on the screen saying the connection has been established. Though you might want to ping the other computer to double check.

ping 192.168.68.2

If nothing happens or you get a no route to host something may have gone wrong.

How to install a ssh server on Manjaro Linux and transfer files over a local network

Install the ssh server if it hasnt been already:

sudo pacman -S openssh

Verify that the openssh service is running

sudo systemctl status sshd.service

If it isnt running enable and start it:

sudo systemctl enable sshd.service
sudo systemctl start sshd.service

The next thing you'll want to do is add a firewall rule to allow connections to the server over the network. By default it comes over port 22. So we'll add a new firewall rule:

sudo ufw allow 22/tcp

Now you should be able to connect to your computer from the ip address. You can also connect to it using the name of the computer.

ssh username@123

where username is your username on the computer and 123 is the ip address. you can also just type the name of the computer and .local. It'll give you a warning by default, just type yes.if you're really concerned about security you can always use Google to find a guide about locking things down, but I wouldnt worry much since if your ISP configured things properly no one would be able to accesss your computer from outside anyways. So to connect to my thinkpad which is on the same network Id type.

ssh adrien@thinkpad.local

Note: if the computer is local on the network and you dont append .local to the end it'll throw an error because it wont be able to resolve it. If the computer isnt local you'll have to figure out its' ip address from the outside network. Though you'll probably have to configure something with your router to let connections in if the computer is at your home, a lot of ISPs block connections from outside far as I know.

Unrelated Note: If you want to transfer files over ssh on a local network and it's assumed you're running a version of Manjaro linux(or Ubuntu) with the xfce Desktop Environment you can type the following in the address bar of thunar:

ssh://username@computername.local

It'll prompt you with a dialogue box to login to the computer via the gui and you can transfer files to it just as you would if the drive was on your computer.

4chan /adv/ is useful sometimes but most of the time not

If the 4chan /adv/ board was a street this is what it would look like in real life:

 Occasionally you might find something you can use amongst the bags of garbage, expired food and broken stuff. So I dont mind posting to it sometimes even though I just walk by bags of garbage. Like one time I posted this on there:

 Time management for NEETs

How do I manage my time when I have nothing better to do? I spend most of my time chatting with people online and watching videos on youtube... occasionally I will play a game but I dont feel like doing much else. Id like to do more productive things but I dont know what to do. I spent all night working on my website last night. Though thats a waste of time too. I did spend some time working on learning python. i was using chatgpt to help me learn id paste it code that didnt work and ask it what i did wrong, it was really helpful. but the problem is that's a pointless thing to learn to because there's nothing i can do with python other than make stupid shit. I think learning C is where its' at but even that is a total waste of time. I wanted to learn Japanese but i also think that's a waste of time. I feel like everything available to me is a waste of time and i was just wondering how i can manage my time better when i have nothing better to do.

After a few non answers and defeatist posts someone posted this: 

You are trying to do "things" to avoid thinking in the real problems, sit down and do nothing and the real course of actions will approximate

He was repeating basically what I already knew and forgot, but I needed to read that. 

I'm nearly 40 years old and I have nothing to show for it. I'm a NEET live in a mental health rehab. I've been diagnosed with several mental illnesses over my life starting when i was 14. I dont have much job experience, actually not much at all. I had trouble keeping a stable place to live because I didnt have life skills and would run away to the youth shelter throughout my 20s. 

After that I sort of slipped into a state where I didnt care about anything and was living inside a world inside my head. Even though i interacted with the real world i remained in a state like i was in my 20s and the world was still as it was as i was in my 20s. Then i came to one day and was really confused when i tried to wake up. Like the woke culture confused me, no pun intended.That's one example. 

I felt like a time traveler for awhile in a weird world even though i've been awake in the reality, i just didnt interact with it except indirectly. my most stable living arrangements have been in institutions and i'm not sure if I'm ever going to be able to live on my own again even though i did in the past but it didnt last for long. I dont have a high school diploma. 

I have computer skills, but not as good as people think they are. Like i use Linux, but a trained monkey could use it. If you have problems with Linux, you're probably just doing it wrong I'm a total moron and i can use it and people think it's some kind of technical feat even though it's easy. if a dumbass like me can use it why do people have trouble with it? I dont know what i want to do and i'll probably never have a job again. because who would hire me and what useful skills do i actually have? fuck knows. i dont have any useful skills far as I know.

Ghost everyone

I thought Id ghost everyone for awhile. Just talk to no one. Just drop off the face of the earth for awhile. Not sure when I'll return. I dont know why I'm writing about it on this blog. Though it's okay because no one reads my blog anyways. 

I'll let myself communicate with people indirectly at least, just shit post to my blog or write some twats on twatter. You may have found this via a Google search and you're wondering where you are, dont worry! You might as well click off this page, there's nothing to see here!

I'm just tired I guess. I had quite the journey playing with Discord for a few months. I dont think I've encountered so many zoom zooms in my whole life. Some of them are cool but I find them very confusing. Though it may be because it's the 4chan variety of zoomer, so it may not be indicative of a whole generation even though I thought it may be at first. Terminally online and not aware of certain boundaries.

I am bored and boring. I am not sure what I'm doing anymore. I thought of taking a day off from technology on a certain day of the week. Anything with a CPU or microcontroller I will not use. So that means all I do all day is soak up the real world,and maybe a book or write in my journal with a pen. The days I did it was great, nice and relaxing. I just talk to people in the real world that are nearby, if any is around that I want to talk to.