I'm nearly 40 years old and I have nothing to show for it. I'm a NEET live in a mental health rehab. I've been diagnosed with several mental illnesses over my life starting when i was 14. I dont have much job experience, actually not much at all. I had trouble keeping a stable place to live because I didnt have life skills and would run away to the youth shelter throughout my 20s. 

After that I sort of slipped into a state where I didnt care about anything and was living inside a world inside my head. Even though i interacted with the real world i remained in a state like i was in my 20s and the world was still as it was as i was in my 20s. Then i came to one day and was really confused when i tried to wake up. Like the woke culture confused me, no pun intended.That's one example. 

I felt like a time traveler for awhile in a weird world even though i've been awake in the reality, i just didnt interact with it except indirectly. my most stable living arrangements have been in institutions and i'm not sure if I'm ever going to be able to live on my own again even though i did in the past but it didnt last for long. I dont have a high school diploma. 

I have computer skills, but not as good as people think they are. Like i use Linux, but a trained monkey could use it. If you have problems with Linux, you're probably just doing it wrong I'm a total moron and i can use it and people think it's some kind of technical feat even though it's easy. if a dumbass like me can use it why do people have trouble with it? I dont know what i want to do and i'll probably never have a job again. because who would hire me and what useful skills do i actually have? fuck knows. i dont have any useful skills far as I know.