My medication doesnt help and tends to make things worse

I'm on three psychiatric drugs. They dont do anything useful except muddle me up. I have trouble doing basic things without getting distracted constantly and not remembering what I was doing. Even the task of writing this blog post is difficult. When I'm on these medications I tend to function at a quarter of my potential. It tends to vary depending on the time of day, when I had my 'medication' though I dont like calling them medication because there's nothing medicinal about psychiatric drugs. 

An antibiotic is a medication because it has proven medicinal properties. Doctors know how it works, while no one knows how psychiatric drugs work since no one has found a cause to any kind of mental illness. There is no chemical imbalance and telling people that is very dishonest. Any doctor that isnt a quack will tell you that they really dont know how the drugs work.

While I try to do things my mind sort of takes over. This happens while I'm off the drugs, though while I'm on them it makes it ten times worse. Far as I know I dont suffer from what they think I do. I'm definetely not paranoid about anything. I just have a hard time explaining what's going on. The drugs only make it harder for my to explain myself since they effect my memory. Also a lot of doctors are pressed for time and are too arrogant to listen.

When I take the Divalproex at night it tends to make me high in a bad way. it makes me do irrational things. This is actually a common paradoxical effect that can happen with this drug. It's well known yet the doctor doesnt believe me. I'm not sure why he doesnt believe me. it often makes it hard to geto sleep at a decent hour. mental health professionals tend to regard the drugs as something that always helps even when apparently they're doing a lot more harm than good. 

Most of the reason I havnt made much progress in my life is the effects of these drugs. If I was never on them I would probably be gainfully employed. Some of the effects I've had on them probably are permanent. Things like antipsychotics have been proven to damage the brain in various ways.